Purple petals pile gracelessly on the cement,
Laying amidst brothers' and sisters' gore,
A single tear falls from the eye of a passerby,
Helpless to halt their unmitigated slaughter,
"Gardener, why do you harm these innocents?"
The question falls from passerby lips unbidden,
"It is my job," comes the dispassionate reply,
Unbothered that such violence ought to be forbidden,
"Is this truly a justification?" inquires Passerby,
Purely unconvinced of such a scapegoated explanation,
"It is simply a reason," says impassive Gardener,
Undoubtedly intending to offer no more clarification,
"Does employment give reason for immoral actions?"
Passerby a
This heavy feeling,
Weighing down my chest,
My heart so sore,
Though I'm trying my best,
All I want,
Is for you to see,
Just how much,
You mean to me,
I know things went sour,
I made a mistake,
By not giving you space,
Being clingy and fake,
My emotions were too strong,
Impossible to control,
They ripped and they tore,
At my very soul,
I didn't understand,
How to deal,
With all the ways,
You made me feel,
The burn of love,
A passionate flame,
Impossible to quench,
Or ever feel the same,
Such intense longing,
And so much pain,
My desire for you,
Driving me insane,
My strong sense of self,
Compromised by you,
Who made me feel and say,
An
I was willing to do anything,
Just to talk to you,
Drop whatever I'm doing,
Whether old, important, or new,
All I wanted was your presence,
And some of your time,
You'll soon find your mistake,
Once you read this rhyme,
Falling in love for me,
Is a very rare phenomenon,
Which is why if not nurtured,
As quick as it's come, it's gone,
The feelings are brutal when they hit,
'Mercy' isn't something they use,
My poor heart can't take it,
As they batter and bruise,
There are only two remedies,
To this unbearable occurrence,
You hold the first key,
Simply with your presence,
But the second key is one,
That lies deep within me,
My inner guardian
You simply can't understand,
This soul-searing ache,
The familiar reminder,
That love is a mistake,
Nothing but pain,
And unsatiated desire,
Nagging at me constantly,
Turning me into a liar,
I lie to myself,
And I lie to you,
Hiding this burning feeling,
So you don't see through,
To who I really am,
Someone even I didn't know,
Lonely, clingy, sad,
Things I won't let show,
And I know this isn't me,
But right now it's how I feel,
Usually I'm so much stronger,
That this hardly seems real,
Normally I can withstand it all,
No matter what life throws my way,
Hurricanes, typhoons, tsunamis,
Nothing will make me sway,
Then you come along,
Pushi
Once the Apple of your Eye,
Someone you held most dear,
Losing me was the only,
Thing that you had to fear,
Now those days have long past,
As distance of both time and land,
Have managed to worm their way between,
And steal you away like contraband,
New people stepped into your life,
Taking that special place in your heart,
I had once held so close to you,
Pulling us even further apart,
And now that you have settled so well,
There's one in particular that's entered,
A permanent fixture forever,
As our thread frays so thin,
Husband,
Someone to have and hold,
In sickness and in health,
'Til death do you part,
Taking away all your wealth,
Purple petals pile gracelessly on the cement,
Laying amidst brothers' and sisters' gore,
A single tear falls from the eye of a passerby,
Helpless to halt their unmitigated slaughter,
"Gardener, why do you harm these innocents?"
The question falls from passerby lips unbidden,
"It is my job," comes the dispassionate reply,
Unbothered that such violence ought to be forbidden,
"Is this truly a justification?" inquires Passerby,
Purely unconvinced of such a scapegoated explanation,
"It is simply a reason," says impassive Gardener,
Undoubtedly intending to offer no more clarification,
"Does employment give reason for immoral actions?"
Passerby a
This heavy feeling,
Weighing down my chest,
My heart so sore,
Though I'm trying my best,
All I want,
Is for you to see,
Just how much,
You mean to me,
I know things went sour,
I made a mistake,
By not giving you space,
Being clingy and fake,
My emotions were too strong,
Impossible to control,
They ripped and they tore,
At my very soul,
I didn't understand,
How to deal,
With all the ways,
You made me feel,
The burn of love,
A passionate flame,
Impossible to quench,
Or ever feel the same,
Such intense longing,
And so much pain,
My desire for you,
Driving me insane,
My strong sense of self,
Compromised by you,
Who made me feel and say,
An
I was willing to do anything,
Just to talk to you,
Drop whatever I'm doing,
Whether old, important, or new,
All I wanted was your presence,
And some of your time,
You'll soon find your mistake,
Once you read this rhyme,
Falling in love for me,
Is a very rare phenomenon,
Which is why if not nurtured,
As quick as it's come, it's gone,
The feelings are brutal when they hit,
'Mercy' isn't something they use,
My poor heart can't take it,
As they batter and bruise,
There are only two remedies,
To this unbearable occurrence,
You hold the first key,
Simply with your presence,
But the second key is one,
That lies deep within me,
My inner guardian
You simply can't understand,
This soul-searing ache,
The familiar reminder,
That love is a mistake,
Nothing but pain,
And unsatiated desire,
Nagging at me constantly,
Turning me into a liar,
I lie to myself,
And I lie to you,
Hiding this burning feeling,
So you don't see through,
To who I really am,
Someone even I didn't know,
Lonely, clingy, sad,
Things I won't let show,
And I know this isn't me,
But right now it's how I feel,
Usually I'm so much stronger,
That this hardly seems real,
Normally I can withstand it all,
No matter what life throws my way,
Hurricanes, typhoons, tsunamis,
Nothing will make me sway,
Then you come along,
Pushi
Once the Apple of your Eye,
Someone you held most dear,
Losing me was the only,
Thing that you had to fear,
Now those days have long past,
As distance of both time and land,
Have managed to worm their way between,
And steal you away like contraband,
New people stepped into your life,
Taking that special place in your heart,
I had once held so close to you,
Pulling us even further apart,
And now that you have settled so well,
There's one in particular that's entered,
A permanent fixture forever,
As our thread frays so thin,
Husband,
Someone to have and hold,
In sickness and in health,
'Til death do you part,
Taking away all your wealth,
Wow. It's literally been years since I updated this. Like, five. Uhh, still in California, still wish I never had to grow up, still love Kingdom Hearts.
I also like poetry, and have written a bit, though I'm a total amateur.
Feel free to send me a note, or even just comment. I don't bite! Usually.
You asked me yesterday, what would make me happiest in life. My first thought was "Being with you". It was stupid and sappy and overly-romantic for your taste, but it was my first thought. Instead of saying this, I just shrugged and told you that I didn't know yet, made up some excuse about traveling. We talked again about how you're supposedly unable to love anyone, but that you "can be" attracted to people. "You know I can be attracted to people, right?" Sure. Just not me. Not that it would matter since you have no inclination to act on that attraction, apparently. But still, every time it comes up it's just another smack to my face about how I'm not good enough for you. Maybe no one is. Or maybe you subconsciously think you're not good enough for anyone. You once told me that you don't truly believe anyone could love you; you meant it in a general sense, but I'm sure it could be added on to romance, too. Though if I told you this, you'd probably disagree. And I'm probably
I feel like I’m dying inside. I’m trying so hard to keep myself afloat, to convince myself that I shouldn’t long for something that was never fully there. I know it was just an illusion, and that your arms around me was affection in only a friendship-level. But I can’t help but feel cheated, betrayed. I can’t help but to resent you. It feels like you gave me something so precious, mulled me into allowing myself to enjoy it, and then yanked it away. And it hurts so much, so much more than you’ll ever be able to understand. I don’t think I can take this pain anymore. I tried, I really did. I’ve tried for months. And maybe things have gotten better, or maybe I’ve just gotten used to it. But I really can’t do it anymore. I’m sorry. I’m sorry to all my family who will be hurt by this decision. But this is my decision. It’s my life. And I have the right to take it if I want to. Try to live as well and happily as you can, even though you won't see this--I was a difficult family member for
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Wait, your last comment on here is from JANUARY! Suddenly i feel very honored to have gotten a fav from you for my poem Full Colour Impressions. I am totally thrilled you liked it. You say you like poetry, so may I be so bold as to suggest another of mine?